Life, might break your heart

The first crisis came when I realized I had to let people go.

This is one of the toughest challenges in life, particularly if we care deeply about the person or people we are parting ways with. I have to accept that our paths may diverge from those we care about and that we might have to say goodbye to someone we have known and loved for a long time. This process is painful because I feel that the other person is not ready to let go, as if I am leaving someone behind. I choose to believe that letting go does not necessarily mean that we are giving up on the relationship, but rather that we are acknowledging that our paths may be different. Knowing that letting people go is a part of life and that sometimes we have to be a villain, it still breaks my heart.

The second realization dawned on me when I recognized that I am not only responsible for my own life but also for the lives of those around me.

This is a heavy burden to bear, as it requires me to think about the future and make decisions that will affect not only myself but also my loved ones. I feel overwhelmed by the responsibilities that come with being an adult, such as taking care of my health, supporting my family and friends, and planning for the future. Who will pick my body up if I lay down on the floor because of stress? Me. Who will get my back if I fall down? Me. Who will take care of me if I get sick? Me. And also me if my family members get in trouble. This is also more challenging when I feel like I am not equipped to handle these responsibilities, I feel like not living up to my own expectations.

My current crisis involves navigating the complex workings of society.

This has been a difficult task for me, as society is a confusing and contradictory place. It is so hard to know what is right and wrong, there are often shades of grey and differing opinions. Sometimes I find myself waking up in the middle of the night, questioning whether I made the right choice. I have struggled to understand the rules and norms of society and feel like I do not fit in. I feel like I am being forced to conform to societal expectations that do not align with my own values or beliefs. I constantly question myself and my place in the world and have struggled to find my own path in life.

I’m wondering whether life is intrinsically tough, or if we make it that way.